Awakening To Your Authentic Self (Love)

I was up early in the morning, had my bathtub time, and then went downstairs to make a cup of tea. As I was waiting for the kettle to boil, I heard the chorus to the song by Buffalo Springfield “It’s time we stop, hey, what’s that sound, everybody look what’s going down” was playing in the background of my mind. Now, please tell me that I’m not the only one who gets songs beamed to their heads that eventually somehow play out into their daily lives.

Anyhow, I’m enjoying the tune in my head when I clearly heard outside of my head “drip, drop, drip, drop.” I thought to myself, “no way, this can’t be happening” and then, “yes way, it is happening” … my bathtub was slowly draining through my kitchen ceiling, one drop at a time.

I did what anyone would do given this situation; I got a sandwich sized plastic container and put it on the kitchen floor to catch the dripping drops and got on with investigating where the leak was coming from.

Like most things in life, what appears on the surface is rarely the source of the experience. Or, if looking on a quantum level of “reality” (which is where I draw most of my insights from), we are always interacting with a consciousness, which not only is listening to what we say, but is always responding to how we genuinely feel (our emotions).

As the day progressed into finding the origins of the source of the water drips, so did the size of my containers, until I eventually had a fine selection of pots and pans and large bowls scattered around my kitchen floor. I’m pretty sure that I must have seen this fix-it method in an old movie somewhere.

Well, one call for help led to another, and one contractor also led to another, and another, and soon drywall was being removed, tiles lifted up, pipes exposed, ceiling pieces and parts coming down, and pots and pans and bowls being replaced with a collection of large pails and buckets. My home was slowing turning into a plumbers and contractors adventure amusement water theme park.

I intuitively knew that there was more than the physicality of the water leak and that there was an opportunity for shifting my level of consciousness to another level, but really I didn’t know what I was in for, on top of the universe having a sense of humour that was preparing me for what I had asked for.

My grandmother used to say to me “When you ask for something from the universe, you must be ready for surprises; everything may seem to be going wrong, when in reality, it is going right.”

Water is symbolic of our emotions; we leak water from our eyes whenever we experience strong emotions (from grief, anguish, and despair, over to gratitude, Love, joy and great belly laughter). So, here I was, faced with finding the source of my own hidden emotions (water) in my home (my life).

Allegorically, leaks and water damages are reminding us that we are overflowing with feelings that have been unconsciously suppressed and it’s time for clearing out.

Well, doesn’t that make sense given that we are all here for the expression of “Though shall do epic shift in this lifetime!”  After all, the next levels (awarenesses) of our lives will require a higher version of ourselves, so we might as well let go and grow.

I became fearless through this experience and decided to self-enquire with the universe about what the shift was that I needed to release, and badabing, badabong, I was shown. No sooner had I asked the universe to reveal the answer to me, I was sitting myself onto the seat of my throne when wazam kabam off went the toilet seat. That was different …

Shortly afterward my husband came out of our other bathroom complaining that the hose had detached from the shower head, and yes, that was different again …

I had to keep reminding myself of my beautiful grandmother’s words, and that helped me to bust out laughing, because what else could I do? Well yes, I did consider dragging my husband’s five thousand pound BBQ up the backyard steps, across the patio and into the kitchen and setting my house on fire, except by the time I went through all that struggle with the way things were going, the propane tank would’ve probably been empty so I ditched that plan (along with the knowledge that karma and the fire department would be forever following me).

I soon found within myself the lessons that needed to come into my conscious awareness. The universe brought about the physical manifestations along with the most perfect actors (role players) for my awakening to some powerful inner truths. I am now grateful for everything that happened, from the energetic quantum world, the emotional realms, the physical manifestations right on through to the fellow earth travelers that validated for me what I needed to learn.

It was time for me to focus on releasing unconscious beliefs (imprinted stories) that were held in my energy field.  Deciding to speak my truth in real time, loving myself for all that was, is, and will be, and that not one experience, person or thing can ever define me. I realized that all my past experiences were the fuel for my inner fire (and not my husband’s giant BBQ), and that this inner fire is the catalyst for personal transformation and growth.

My journey has shaped me to experience all that I have in the past, so that I can be all that I am today, and to become of greater service to others. No time has been lost, and everything is always in Divine timing.

Unexpected surprises always follow our requests. Keep your heart and mind open to receiving answers, and be okay with being authentic with yourself; it’s going to be revealed anyways!

“It is not the pursuit of greater and greater states of happiness and bliss that leads to enlightenment, but the yearning for reality and the rabid dissatisfaction with living anything less than a fully authentic life.” ~ Adyashanti

“You either learn your way towards writing your own script in life, or you unwittingly become an actor in someone else’s script.” ~ John Taylor Gatto

“All the “not readies,” all the “I need time,” are understandable, but only for a short while. The truth is that there is never a “completely ready,” there is never a really “right time.” As with any descent to the unconscious, there comes a time when one simply hopes for the best, pinches one’s nose, and jumps into the abyss.” ~ Clarissa Pinkola Estés